Albert Einstein, one of the sexiest intellects in history, determined in 1905 that the laws of physics are the same for all non-accelerating observers, and that the speed of light in a vacuum was independent of motion of all observers. This was the theory of special relativity. You know, e=mc²? Okay, okay so it is really a barely there relevance to my blog but I love that guy so I had to include him. My former students used to say it was creepy how much I loved old dead guys. LOL
What I’m trying to broach is the topic of aging and how it feels different for all of us. I have never been worried about my own aging. I accepted death as the inevitable outcome of biology long ago and I’ve never feared it. It will happen when it does and I can not do anything about it. I do hope that it will be fast and I will be unaware of my end. That would be a nice gift.
I do feel “old” or am surprised by the passing of time when OTHER people, especially children get to certain ages. I had my bebes later in my life but my friends had them earlier which meant I got to attend my friend’s daughter’s COLLEGE graduation. WTF? I mean it seemed like just yesterday I was pushing her around in a shopping cart when she was a BABY for F*@#’s sake! That was a whopper. How could that many years have passed me by? Now, one of my BESTIES is celebrating her BABY boy’s 21st birthday. It always shocks me when stuff like that happens. Maybe I’m not as smart as I think I am. I live my life day to day and just kind of exist as happily as I possibly can. Then, BAM, somebody’s kid is in Kindergarten or graduating from high school and for a moment I just feel OLD. What is that called?
I don’t feel old when I see my own birthdays. I will be 54 in November and I have no ire or trepidation about it. I do not resent the wrinkles or grey hair I have – it’s just all natural. I know eventually one of my organs will give out. Hell, I’m wearing a brace on my thumb right now because arthritis is deforming it. I may need surgery. That’s the way the cookie crumbles. But why oh why do I feel so damn old when somebody else’s kid, or my own sometimes, turn a certain age?
Age is relative I say to myself (that is how Einstein’s theories popped up for me). You suddenly realize you are just a speck. Look at the age of the UNIVERSE for crying out loud. Wanna talk OLD? There are possibly 100 BILLION galaxies. GALAXIES people! I mean 53 human years is nothing compared to other numbers. I remember going to school in the US and experiencing their “traditional calendar” for the first time. I could not believe we got MONTHS off in the summer for vacation. Oh.My.God. summer vacation dragged on and seemed to last forever. For this studious child where school was life it was torture. I moved faster back then so that was the first time Einstein’s theories made sense to me. I move faster so time goes by slow?
Help me figure this out. What should we call this feeling? How do you feel about age? Please leave me a comment. I don’t know much but I know I love you. . .so just read our posts faster and time may slow down. LOL
Some of the dead old men I have always had a crush on. . .